It’s really, really hard to push you away, even though I need to. But the feeling of you slightly getting the hint and more than slightly pulling away is like a tsunami tide in my heart and pit of my stomach that’s pulling back the power and the strength and the life of me with it. I know that once the force of it vomits all emotions and feelings down upon my shores, it will crash and shatter the building that I had built there. But this is necessary… I must pray for the strength to survive, to not let your hurt crush my will.
We’re both social abjects; so close to being ideal yet just not (and never will be). Let’s be lost causes together, cowering in the nooks that others reject. We’ll turn our heads from the malls and drive instead. The irreparables in consolatory carts. We’ll fight like we both don’t know how and die in the tenderness that will always be new to us. We’ll spiral and try to fit in and then fall, crash, unfold. We’ll drive, and we’ll never arrive.
"Ma era davvero amore, quello che ho
visto nei tuoi occhi, o solamente il
riflesso del mio?"
purtroppo, mi hai dato una risposta..
"Everyone has a 2am and a 2pm personality. I’m more interested in the monster you become at 2am rather than the human being you pretend to be at 2pm."
I should have known, your “Hour-X” was terrible, not terrific
"Amare se stessi è molto difficile, ma credo che ad un certo punto ti accorgi che proprio quando inizi ad amarti anche gli altri ti amano, si crea letteralmente un altro clima.
C’è bisogno che le persone però se ne accorgano,
e questo è difficile."
Elizabeth Julie Shanti (via elizabeth-julieshanti)
A new language,
positivity is the present tense, self-respect the imperative, dignity the participle,
I am learning